Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

In Memoriam....


In Memoriam
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Sitting amidst these clouds, 
As close to the heavens as I'll ever be, 
I miss You as if it was yesterday, 
I wonder if You're looking down on me,

Thinking If I should still pen these words, 
10 years seem a long time to grieve, 
But that spring day's picture hasn't faded, 
Where you held my hand, and forgot to breath,

Time hurls us forward relentlessly, 
This past year had it's own character, 
A medley of memories made, 
Equal parts love, sorrow and laughter,

I find myself at crossroads again, 
Change looms, shadowed in uncertainty, 
But You once prepared me for this Ma, 
When at 16, You sent me across the Sea,

Looking back, I know how hard it was, 
For You to let this rascal run free, 
And when I called when things got tough, 
You said, "just finish," and You steeled me,

I've still got a lot more to learn, 
A longer way left yet to wander, 
Before I understand how You did it, 
And still kept space in Your heart to proffer,

We will continue to talk more Ma, 
When I stop to breath; out nowhere, 
I know You're listening in those moments, 
When my heart whispers its prayer... 

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Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Anathema


Anathema
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The Echo of Her Fading Footsteps,
Snip away at His Mind's Thread,
Looking out the Window in His Hands,
This Silence, He has come to Dread,

Disallowed of His Worship.
His Hands tied to Iron Posts,
Turned away from His Parish,
He Whispers only to Ghosts,

He Wonders if She's Smiling,
If the Sky is Bright where She is,
As Caliginous as His World is,
He Hopes Her's is Filled with Bliss,

He Hopes She might Remember Him,
In a Timid but Fond Recollection,
When Water Falls from the Sky,
Or in Sunlight's First Mention....

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Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Skylight

Skylight
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He Walks Along Awestruck,
Through these Cotton Clouds,
One Foot Playfully After the Other,
He Looks Through Wonder's Shroud,

Wondering How He Got Here,
In This Meadow in the Sky,
Castles Surround a Peasant,
Made Rich by a Princess' Smile,

He Recalls a Voice that Called,
A Heart from Hollow Chambers,
The Redolence of Her Breath,
That Fanned a Flame from Dying Embers,

One Who Lived in Darkness,
A Soul from Life, Withdrawn,
Now He Dances with Light,
And Dinners with the Dawn,

A World is Left Behind,
As He's Brought Closer to the Sun,
A Fool Raised into the Heavens,
By the Grace of Only One...

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Sunday, August 16, 2015

Celestial

Celestial
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Unbeckoned, She Came,
A Freedom, Bearing Chains,
Locked Away in Her Halcyon Gaze,
Against the Bonds of Her Smile, I Strain,

I Avert My Eyes from Her Splendour,
Yet, Still Unable to Avoid Her Grace,
Her Countenance Deeply Etched Within,
She is, of Sunlight Traced,

Who is She? This Angel,
Whom the Four Winds Encircle,
Dancing in the Night of Her Hair,
Their Fingers Tightly Entangled.

Carelessly Beautiful,
She Colours the World in Candor,
A Nonchalant Elegance,
That Quickens My Heart's Murmer,

The Inamorata of Stars,
Her Eyes Mirror Their Sparkle,
Lifting the Hearts Around Her,
Gravity Itself, is Enfeebled...

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Saturday, August 8, 2015

Calefaction


Calefaction
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You are the Gauge,
That Measures My Summer,
All is Warm in Your Gaze,
A Heat that doesn't Swelter.

You Carry the Sun's Smile,
Into the Cold Depths of Winter,
I am Warmed in the Drifting Snow,
By Your Giggles' Shimmer,

The Melody of Your Voice,
Is the Pitter-Patter of Rain,
The Promise of a New Faith,
That Staves all Past Pain,

The Hint of Your Favour,
A Quotientless Question,
My Fears Fester Cold,
Amidst this Tall Bastion,

Just a Glance Toward,
Is What This Fool asks,
To Enlighten his Ignorance,
And Take His Fear to Task,

Save One from Himself,
Nature's Seasoned Queen,
Shine a Realmless Knight,
Back to an Unseen Gleam,

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It's been a long time since I have written something like this. Time it seems, is relentless in its path forward. I have let it carry me along it's river without stopping to notice what is around me for a long time. This poem is homage to a Muse rediscovered.

Monday, April 13, 2015

In Memoriam..

In Memoriam...
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The years keep passing by, 
Widening the space between us,
Here in my heart, Your smile is warm,
Your life, etched into its canvas,


Seems so long since we spoke ma,
I miss your voice calling my name,
Tho often it was to correct me,
You prepared me well for this game,

This past year was a special one,
It carried both joy and pain in full,
An angel tied her life to mine,
One truly too good for this fool,

I know you held my hand,
When pain and fear held me rooted,
I found a will and courage within me,
One I never knew existed,

Mom I never knew what your life meant,
Till it slipped through my fingers,
I am still learning your lessons,
Your love echoes through these years,

The river of time that separates us,
Is the same that draws us closer,
But I've still some views to carve,
Before the water again unites us...

- Ganesh J. Perumal

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Another Poem I cannot name, seems all I have these days. =)



Sunday, April 13, 2014

Catching Up




Catching Up
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It's Been awhile since We spoke Ma,
8 years have wandered by,
But Now when days seem a little harder,
I just look for Your smile in the sky,

A lot has changed since You left Us,
It seemed brighter when You were around,
But new memories have tempered the old,
And they keep Me from running aground, 

You should see the kids You met Ma,
They echo Your strength in their smile,
And the others; I know You're watching,
And grinning at Their cheeky wile, 

Rascals are walking down aisles,
Sons have become Fathers,
Life, I have come to learn Ma,
Is Alive and all around Us, 

I miss You always Ma,
Never a moment I don't wish you're here,
But I just have to look around Ma,
To know Your Love is still just as near… 

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Sunday, January 27, 2013

Anger

Anger
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Oft I wrote of Love,
And It's humble linings,
Today I Praise its Demons,
And it's Bastard Beginnings,
Oedipal Gods,
That found Their own Sons,
Have Torn this World Asunder,
While turning its One Sun,
I see my Loathing Wander,
In that I cannot Affront,
A lost point of View,
In a World that is Wanton,
I hate those shorn Promises,
Love Lost for Faith and Prayer,
I bear my Curses Strongly,
And Clench my Fists in Fervor,
Anger that bears its Fruits,
Frustration that carries Candor,
I walk my Feet in Tandem,
To the beat of my Heart's Measure ,
That is, is it Not,
The words of insatiable Hunger,
Anger, Hate, Their Furor,
A Verse without an Ender...

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Monday, September 3, 2012

Lullaby


Lullaby
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Sleep Sweet My Love,
Steadfast in My Thoughts,
And Know that I Love You,

Though this Sky is Far Away,
My Wish Borne on This Star,
Is the Same that's Watching Over You,

I See You My Dear, 
In the Walls of My Heart,
Like a Reflection in a Mirror,

Separated by a Sliver of Silver,
That is a World Apart, 
In the Breadth of a Millimeter,

Still, Sleep Sweet My Love,
And Dream Pretty Things,
And Know that I Miss You,

I’ll Hold your Fears,
Here By My Side,
And Never Let Them Near You,

Sleep Sweet My Darlin’,
Tucked in with this Prayer,
Rest, Gentle and True,

The Morning Will Come,
Bearing Another Day,
That Brings Me Closer to You…

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Saturday, August 18, 2012

The Traveller

The Traveller
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Stars Beckon Him again,
The Wanderer of Ages,
Another Ship makes Sail,
Bearing Him and His pages,

He Faces The Silent Sky,
Her White Clouds, Comforting,
Even in Their Darkest Moments,
Their Tears Disguise His Weeping,

Home Lies Far Behind,
A Whisper of Memory,
Of a Hearth’s Dying Embers,
Fading in the Wake of his Journey,

He Carries His Secret With Him,
The Truth of Lost Sons,
That Home now an Alien Place,
Serenaded by Twenty One Guns,

The Miles Kept Him Young,
But Aged His World Unkindly,
Time's Gift to Wanderers,
Another Victim of Relativity,

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Wednesday, June 27, 2012

The Rose

The Rose
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Time never befriends us,
Slipping through our hands,
Except when Apart from Her,
Each Moment Needlessly Extends,

She owns My Thoughts,
O' Heaven's Perfect Gift,
Her Laughter Parts My Worries,
And in My Life, Light Drifts,

Her Softest Touch bears Felicity,
Her Scent, Euphoria's Waft,
Daughter of the Starry Night,
The Epitome of God's Craft,

As She Lies Asleep Each Night,
Stars War to Catch a Glance,
The Heavens wait, Stagnant, Silent,
Even the Wind and Leaves don't Dance,

O' Device of My Language,
The Praise of My Song,
She, who Inspires Muses,
The Smile that Awakes the Dawn,

Fated, Like of a Rose,
Loving the Sun from Afar,
I raise My Head each Morning,
With a Bud of Hope, to see My Star...

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Thursday, April 19, 2012

A Fairy Tale
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Hers is a Flower,
That Blooms Above Others,
A Smile He would Remember,
As One Fortune Favors,

She is the Cadence of Charm,
Her Voice makes Hearts Flutter,
She keeps Time with Ease,
With the Childlike Gurgle of Her Laughter,

She Smells of Happy Summers. 
Of Autumn that is Passing, 
Into the Waft of Warm Winter Love, 
She, The Living Scent of Spring,

She Carried In Her Gaze,
The Hint of Memories Unmade, 
The Depth of Her Eyes Echoing,
A Lifetime of Words Unsaid,

Like a Dream She Walks,
In His Life Without a Care,
Be it Awake or in Slumber,
She's Always There,

She, The Epitome,
Of Happily-ever-afters,
The Once in a Life-times, 
From Fairytale Chapters...

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Friday, April 13, 2012

A Son's Missive

A Son's Missive
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I've Watched Another Year Pass,
With Its Usual song, Tears and Jest, 
Again This Spring Sun is Familiar
And With It, The Hollow in My Chest,

I Think of You Fondly Ma,
Never, From My Thoughts Apart,
Your Smile Still Outshines This Sun,
No One's Been Closer to My Heart,

The Little Boy in Me Still Reaches,
His Hand Out for You to Hold, 
When Anything Stands in His Path,
Or When the World Gets Too Cold,


And Though You're not Around Anymore,
Your Strength and Lessons Linger,
I'm Glad You've Taught Me well Enough,
To Cross These Roads That Get Wider, 

I still Look to the Sky for Hope,
Tho Not from Mankind's Gods,
But From the Traces of Your Smile,
In the Sunlight that Breaks Dark Clouds,

I Miss You Often Ma, 
Most So Today,
I Don't Know When We'll Meet Again,
But We'll Catch Up Someday... 

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Wednesday, March 28, 2012

The Florin


The Florin
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A Threepence met a Florin once,
In a Merchant's Weathered Hand,
Spellbound with Her Sun Washed Glow,
Before in His Purse, She Went,

He was a Worn, Tarnished Silver, 
As Most Thruppenny Bits were,
Flitting from Hands to Pockets, 
Blithe of Fate, Till Her Allure,

He Wished Not to be Bartered That Day,
Longing Instead, for a Measure in that Purse,
To Again Sight Her Burnished Gold,
The Glint of His Dreams, Terse,

La Fiorino D'oro,
The Only Coin Worth Saving, 
Minted by More Careful Hands, 
The One Men Loathed Parting...

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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

A Wraith's Tale

A Wraith's Tale
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Battered and Forgotten,
The Wispy Form Takes a Step,
The Trail of His Tears,
Shadow His Once Strong Traipse,

Its a Familiar Shodden Path,
That bares Its way Before Him,
How He wound up here again,
Is a Question Just beyond Him,

His Fingers Trace the Scars,
Over where His heart may have Been,
Its last Crumbles Long Borne,
On the Back of a Cold Southern Wind,

He Dared to Dream Before,
Maybe Twice or Thrice In Faith,
Splitting These Scars in hope,
To Find the Heart of a Wraith,

But Alas, There was None,
Not All Souls were Destined to Dream,
Some are Just the Dust,
That Let Others Sleep Serene,

Tho Some Stories end Warm, 
There are Tales that Turn Skins Cold,
This is One Such  Tragedy
Of a Youth given a Life Too Old...
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Sometimes I cannot speak my thoughts coherently, But I am thankful that I have this place, where I can leave these memories. This poem speaks for itself, and it speaks for me...

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Starscraper


Starscraper
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The World Calls,
Yet We Sit Still,
Amidst this Concrete Jungle,
Forgetting Life’s Thrill,

We were Born once,
Kids that Embraced Adventure,
Our Imagination, They Took From Us,
Leaving Pawns for their Venture,

Yet The Stars remain,
Within Sight on This Island,
Reminding Forgotten Truths,
That Our Reach is Further Than this Cavern,

Mankind Has built Skyscrapers,
But Left behind Their Lesson,
These Stars are within Reach,
If only We Hearken Their Beckon…
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Another Long Absence. It happens. But there's something about a clear night sky, with the ocean lapping at your feet, and a ga-ja-za-billion stars out there to put Life in Perspective. Everyone one of those Hot Balls of Gases could be surrounded by 8 Planets like ours, Thats Exponential, Yet, in all that great vastness, we still have a part to play in this circle of life. How we make use of it, now That is Always the Question...

We Are born with the Potential to change our Fates and improve the lives of those around us. We should never settle for anything less then the Stars themselves...


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Katherine

Katherine
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It Got A Lot Darker,
Since Your Light Left Us,
I Let Anger Illuminate My Path,
And Silenced Faith in my Opus,

You Knew That Boy Before,
The One That Made You Cry,
Couldn't Understand Why you Had To Go,
Now I Understand I Just Did Not Try,

I Know Now, That as You Left,
In My Arms That Dark Thursday,
You Gave Me One Last Lesson,
To Get me the Rest of The Way,

I Still Remember Your Pain,
But Now It's Tempered with Your Smile,
Cos No Matter How Tough Things Got,
Giving up was Never Your Style,

I'm Learning Slowly Now,
To Stop Listening for Your Echo,
To Sing My Own Song Instead,
Harmonizing with Your Concerto,

I will Never Fill Your Shoes Ma,
But I Set My Footsteps Next to Yours,
Mother, As Long as I live,
Help Me Steer Your Course,

I Know Someday, Eventually,
7 p.m., Will Come Round Again,
I Hope When You Come to Pick Me up,
I'll be a Son You're Just as Proud to Claim,

Till Then Mother,
I Know Surely,
You'll Never Be Further,
Then My Heart is From Me...
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In Loving Memory of my Mother, Katherine Perumal; Oct 21, 1946 - April 13, 2006.

Today will be the 5th Anniversary of my Mother's Passing. I am learning, and I've grown alot since then. Yes I do feel detached from alot of things, but I have slowly come to terms with what has happened. 7pm, is something I mentioned here in this poem, it was a special time, when my Mother would return home everyday from work, and pick me up from my Grandma's Place. It's a reference from an entry in an old Journal I kept. I did not know then, that a Year and a Day from the day I wrote it, my Mother would leave me. I miss Her very much, but the best I can do for Her memory, is to live as She taught me to.


I Miss You Ma..

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Lady Unknown

Lady Unknown
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I Trace Your Gentle Steps,
Oh Conundrum's Vixen,
Through each Sway and Dance,
My Eyes Follow Entranced,
This Unforeseen Entrapment,
Stolen from a word's Glance,
I wonder What is this Fusion,
And Ponder of Fate and Chance,
I, Who feared only Silence,
Found Her Alive In Your Eyes,
Yet I'm Haunted by Your Presence,
As I Hesitate to throw This Dice,
If There is A Path Laid ahead of me,
I Do not See it lit,
If there is a Book Open Before me,
I barely discern it's script,
I only sense Hope,
The Surf of your Gentle Laughter,
Breaking Against These Shores,
Tapping on these Rusted Shutters...
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I haven't been around here for awhile, I actually have some nice ideas filed away, and hopefully I can muster more motivation to cultivate them. This particular one is very personal, it speaks of something that many of us carry within us. It speaks of ambiguity, and it speaks of curiosity, two elements that together could make or break us...

Monday, February 14, 2011

Kathmandu

I recently went to the capital of Nepal, the city of Kathmandu. My first approach into the valley itself was in my eyes amazing. The ground looked close enough touch, the mountains, riddled with homes, and sandy roads like ant trails. Green hillsides, mixed with dusty sand, embroidered with the cotton wool clouds, I could not help but feel a growing sense of excitement of what awaited me on the ground.

Our plane rode the steep mountain drafts into the valley with a tremble as if the iron bird herself, knew of the behemoth that lay on the outskirts of this valley. Alas, that backbone of the earth, the Himalayas; were shrouded by the lazy fog that hung over the valley. I would have to wait till I left to catch a glimpse of the mountains.

The city herself, seemingly hits you with a playful slap as you breath in her scent. She is a symphony of voices; talking, laughing, selling wares, punctuated with the incessant horns of her iron horses and the high pitched growls of her two wheeled rodents. Her raw scent of dust, so primal and carnal, that you could close your eyes, and still envision her every feature.

I watched children amusing themselves with the simplest of games, powered by the most rudimentary of toys, yet, in my heart, I felt sorry instead for the children I know of back home. Yes, these kids lived in grime, and want, always too cold in the winter, and forever too warm in the summer, but they mastered the most important tool of all, the imagination. They had already learnt to breed fun out of simplicity, and maybe in that sense, they were far more gifted, than the playstation touting bespectacled kids of our fine city.

There were street merchants, selling their wares on the floor, everything from blankets, jackets, shoes and food; students crowding a tea shop after school, and the sheer number of motorbikes, cars and buses that bustled around the two lane road, seemed themselves to defy the spatial laws of physics.

All these images invaded my mind, and even now as I write, I struggle to describe the bustle of humanity that flooded my senses that chilly, dusty afternoon, and I was still 10 minutes away from my hotel.

The first site of note I went to was Swayambunath, or more commonly know as the monkey temple. A religious site at the top of a hill, with 365 steep stone cut steps to maneuver to the top, and every step was worth it. In the thinner air, it was no mean feat, and one can still drive up three quarters of the hill, but meditatively, the climb itself will replace the cold in your bones with a warm tingle, and clear your mind, replacing it with a dull ache in your calves, or as they always say in those exercise infomercials; buns, hips and thighs!

But I digress; at the top of the hill, the architecture of the temple was primarily Buddhist, but bearing several distinctly Hindu features, and of course; hundreds of monkeys that seemed to have trained humans into feeding and even deifying them. I saw Buddhist prayer wheels, and faded sculptures of multi-armed deities carved into little arches in the wall, but the most impressive sight from that temple, for me, was the view.

Kathmandu city lay sprawled around the temple like a priceless hand-woven Persian carpet. From up there, with the cool wind around me, I saw many of the roads and the landmarks I would later drive past. Despite the people around me, I felt for a few moments as if I was alone as I gazed at the view before me, to my right, across the mountain range, the sun broke through the clouds like a bridge of fire to the heavens, and I watched as eagles flew across that landscape that no human artist could paint. As I let my eyes drink in the colours and details of that painting, framing it eternally in my heart, I felt for a few minutes as if I could see that valley through the eyes of one of those majestic eagles. I am not an advocate of the narcissistic and vengeful gods of mankind, but I would like to think that temple, if nothing else, was built to worship that beatific view.

I also visited Pashupatinath temple, one of the most revered Hindu sites in the world. It is a temple dedicated to the Lord Shiva and flanks the holy Bagmati River. Now, I will not behave like a typical Singaporean boy and extol the lesser virtues of this river, and instead talk about what moved me from the first time I entered the gates of this massive temple complex.

Pashupatinath is where a vast majority of Hindus go to cremate their dead traditionally, upon a pyre of wood that is tended by an undertaker. After which, following the traditional Hindu rites the remains are released into the river. The air in the temple was rich with ash, and the smell of burning wood, but despite all of that, I could not care less for the acrid smoke that rode the back of the wind.

I watched as sons placed their fathers and mothers on the wooden pedestals built by the undertakers, I watched as fathers placed their children, and I watched as husbands laid their wives on those beds of flames, and I saw how fragile, we all are. I watched the grief, and the tears, and the desperate desires of parents laying their young down to rest, still with an iota of hope that they will get up and tell them it was all an elaborate prank. I remembered my own mother that day, in that noon sun, and felt wholeheartedly the sadness of all those that stood on that bank, and for a fraction of a second, we were all one.

As I stood there and reflected, sobered in a fashion that only Death can elicit, I thought to myself that despite all the pain it causes us, Dying, is the last act of love from our most cherished ones, to remind us all to live, and to live well.

I feel there is a reason that such sites exist all around the world, and humans as a species, flock to them. I pity only those, that go to such places, and look at it only through the tiny pin-hole of their cameras, failing to partake of the sensory feast that these places provide us. There is an electric energy in the air, a low hum of inspiration, and a sense of one-ness that goes a long way in mending hearts and souls. I know that as I walked through those places to which my fellow men and women have traveled thousands of miles in pursuit of the belief of their spirituality, I felt wonderment, and amidst the hawking, the bustle, and sheer vociferousness of humanity, I still managed to find an ounce of peace. An ounce, that was well worth the journey.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

The Tin Man


The Tin Man
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The Seconds have forgotten Their Dance
The Minutes have Long Lost Their Ways,
Hours have Forgotten Their Breath,
Since She Last Averted Her Gaze,
The Dust That Once was His Heart,
Softly Drums its Final Sonata, 
Losing Itself Slowly to the Rising Wind,
Leaving Only a Hollow Bearing Her Stigmata,
The Tin Man Again Looks Up at Her,
Her Smile in Another's Warmer Hand,
As She Rests Against Her Window Sill,
He Whispers a Loving Blessing,
Turns up His Collar,
A Tear-rusted Band,
And Walks off into the Winter Chill,

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There is a Story here, One I wish I didn't have to tell...